... for do i have to continue this dead life? I feel dead at school. No thats wrong... i may be really dead at school. The only thing i sought for when at school. The only thing i long for... is home. Everything at school feels pointless. Everybody seems to be smiling and laughing. How much of these are forced? How much are faked? How much are to conceal their unhappiness?
For what, do we continue if all we have is pain...
Will be pointlessness continue until i complete my education...
No.
It will continue.
As long as i don't have money... these pointlessness cannot stop. Yet this pointlessness must continue. Because society demands it. Because society says that it brings us money. IF WE DO THIS POINTLESS CRAP, WE WILL BE RICH LIKE FUCK! Get a high paying job! Get high income!
BE RICH LIKE FUCK THEN USE YOUR MONEY TO GET YOURSELF A LIFE.
...What pointlessness... We do pointless things to continue doing pointless things.
For what then, have i started to do these pointless things? Why have i not stopped?
Do i like it?
What a foolish question... I HATE IT
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!
Thats right... I am already dead.
The only place and time i feel at ease... Is when i watch the illusory world of stories. Ahh... How beautiful... the dreams... the emotions... the characters not present in this world...
When will i join them?
...
Never... until i obtain unlimited power... money... or when someone with similar thoughts gain them.
The people in this world... the modern world... have little dreams. They say they want to do those things... but those are mere wishes. Mere wants. Admiration.
Definitely not a dream.
They find excuses to not pursue them. And yet even when it is obtained, their desire is not satisfied.
When given unlimited power, they give up their dream.
Right. What people wish for is money! And to obtain it, somebody else will have to lose it!
There is no turning back already. The world has wished for this... There is only 3 paths left for me to go.
Continue this pointlessness and die pointlessly.
Continue this pointlessness, become one of the rich like fuck, end my own pointlessness. Then restart my own pointlessness. Then die pointless.
Obtain unlimited power. Change the world. End this pointlessness.
Note: This is not a suicide note, despite all the hints that seems like it down there... I would rather end the world then kill myself. Suiciding because of the foolishness of other people is stupid.
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